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Tuesday, March 20th, 2007
4:18 am - dust yourself off and try again.
it's been a while. glad to see you are all still loyal to LJ. haha. i figured i'd give this a shot...nothing better to do at 4:15 am on a tuesday....

-I might be taking some time off of school next year.
-I desperately need to figure things out.
-I have done some very stupid things as of late.
-I know I am not alone in my decisions.
-I am hurting. badly.
-I am learning.
-I am growing.
-I am understanding that i will be okay again.
-I am trying to change.

-I am okay.-

current mood: crushed

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Friday, November 17th, 2006
2:41 am - silent revorie
i wish i didn't know what "happy" was.

it would make this so much easier.

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Tuesday, October 24th, 2006
3:04 pm

and now i have to worry about someone else too.

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Sunday, October 22nd, 2006
3:06 pm - so.
... tuesday is going to suck. :(

current mood: frustrated

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Wednesday, September 27th, 2006
11:50 am - :(
so. this is what it feels like?


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Sunday, September 3rd, 2006
10:29 pm - FYI
Danielle is simply awesome, and i adore and love her.

the end.


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Thursday, August 17th, 2006
3:38 am - it's funny how those memories last.
it's that time. i've decided to formally update my journal and have something of substance in it. hahaha..well. at least, that's my intent; we'll see how it actually goes.

1. i'm not excited at all about going back to school. and i have a great deal of respect for those of you that are... but i'm just not looking forward to it. i feel like i'm wandering through college with no clear direction or desire... I changed my major to political science (laregly because i couldn't stand the art teachers at parkland and i HATED being told whether or not my art was right or wrong...) with a focus in international relations so hopefully i could do some work for not-for-profit organizations or the UN...and i'll also have a minor in journalism if all goes accordig to plan; that way i can still have a shot at being a photojournalist- which for some reason or another has always been appealing for me. i don't want to spend these years just passing through

2. my job has intensified and i'm putting in upwards of 50 hours a week. i don't know how much longer i can go like this... i love the job, but i'm beginning to wonder if it's worth this... and now as a manager, i get to see what the company is really like; and i absolutely despise that. i go into work looking to go home as early as possible... i hate that. i want to enjoy something i spend 40 hours a week at, but i'm wondering i that's possible anymore

3. i got a new car cause my tempo all but exploded. haha. i love my apartment and my roommate never ceases to amaze me.

4. i've drifted away from the vast majority of my friends and i hate that. i hope my efforts aren't in vain.

5. i have a boyfriend. (haha. that sounds so 8th grade.) and i adore him. and am continually happy when he's around.

6. i want to hear from you.

current mood: happy

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Sunday, August 13th, 2006
2:23 am
:) i'm happy.

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Monday, June 19th, 2006
2:11 am - this is how you remind me.
it's serious this time, and i don't know what to say.

I'm not sure what she wants me to do for her, i don't know how to fix this.

and i'm pretty sure, it would be best if they had nothing to do with me.

current mood: crushed

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Thursday, May 25th, 2006
3:04 pm - whatthehell,man.
there's something mildly appalling about the things you've said to me.

current mood: confused

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Friday, May 12th, 2006
1:09 pm - ouch.
so... having tonsils the size of golf balls is not all that fun.... just a little FYI.

but apparently i am a medical oddity. sweet.

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12:58 am
two brunettes

and a red head.

this summer is going to be amazing.:)

current mood: relaxed

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Wednesday, April 26th, 2006
12:22 am
so i started as a manager today.

i kinda like it.

i kinda don't.

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Monday, April 10th, 2006
3:12 am
i hate her.

i'm done with this.

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Friday, March 31st, 2006
2:02 am
i despise him.

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Sunday, March 26th, 2006
4:00 pm - hmm...
....there were only five of us....

holy hell.

current mood: impressed

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Friday, March 24th, 2006
10:03 am
1. My uncle once: tried to convince my mom that there was no way i was 16... that i was infact still the 7 year old he remembered.

2. Never in my life have I: felt irresponsible

3. The one person who can drive me nuts: just one?

5. When I'm nervous: I get physically ill

6. The last time I cried was: when i told my sister i was moving out and she yelled.

7. If I were to get married right now my bridesmaids/groomsmen would be: nora, danielle, and heather

9. My hair: is flippy

10. When I was 5: I wanted to be just like my sister

11. Last Christmas I: played with mind teasers with my sister.

12. When I turn my head left, i see: my window

13. When I turn my head right, I see: the door

14. When I look down I see: my very comfortable bedspread

15. The craziest recent event was: moving day.

16. If I was a character on Friends I'd be: monica

17. By this time next year: my lease will almost be up. haha

18. My favorite Aunt is: my Aunt Kathy

19. I have a hard time understanding: emotions

20. One time at a family gathering: i tried to teach Tim how to play the piano. hahah. that was fun.

21. You know I like you if: i speak to you.

22. If I won an award, the first person(people) I'd thank is: my sister

23. Take my advice: do what you want.

24. My ideal breakfast is: granola and yogurt

25. If you visit my hometown: Um... come see a movie. i'll get you in for free.

26. Where do you plan to visit anytime soon: California. but not until next year.

27. If you spend the night at my house: you would enjoy it because i have a sweet apartment

28. I'd stop my wedding if: I didn't think i'd be happy.

29. The world could do without: judgement

30. I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than: kill a rat

31. Most recent thing you've bought yourself: internet. ahaha

32. Most recent thing someone else bought for you: all the awesome stuff my family got me for my move.

33. I usually answer the phone by saying: hello?

34. My favorite brunette is: Nora... i suppose it's black, really. but whatever it's close enough.

35. The last time I was embarassed in public was: um. i think i've become immune.

36. The animals I would like to see flying besides birds are: fish

37. I should be: figuring out my wireless connection.

38. Once at a bar: I had lots and lots of fun with my crew.

39. Last night: I talked to some old friends

40. There's this guy I know who: says he's interested.

41. There's this girl I know who: should think more of herself.

42. A better name for me would be: something interesting and not as common as jessica.

43. My birthday is: the day after my mom's

44. And by the way: i want you to visit me.

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Thursday, March 16th, 2006
9:13 pm - Also:

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Sunday, March 12th, 2006
2:27 pm - so...
i'm moving out in a week.

i think.

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Monday, February 27th, 2006
11:14 pm
i surprise even myself sometimes.

current mood: bouncy

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